fattening up

just about now in singapore, thousands of students will be getting ready for their first day in junior college, while i am, or was, sitting down and having my breakfast at 12 noon. eating two sausages, an egg, two slices of wheatmeal bread, 1/5 a tin of baked beans and a cup of instant milo, which may as well be counted as a meal itself. this type of luxurious meals have been going on for quite some time and i'm hoping to have put on some weight, unfortunately without exercise. leads me to suspect that the extra weight is actually the spare tyre.

but anyway, since my brain has been really in lack of use for the past month or so, since sitting in front of the television doesn't exactly require complex mathematical calculations, i feel the uncanny urge to blabber and make weird noises. bleargh. oomph paaah looom paaah. so much for wanting to have a deep, insightful, meaningful entry, reflecting upon 2005 and giving my positive outlook for 2006.

to begin with, i suspect i've made the first fatal error of 2006. this would be over staying here in new zealand, instead of being back in singapore in time for the new year. as a result, i'm slowly degenerating from boredom into a hermit, and thus the excessive blogging. now you may not consider it excessive since i've only made like, 3 entries so far, but that's only because i have limited net time before the evil sister comes and kick me off the laptop, to read her fictional escapades in romance e-novels. also, i'm missing the entire week of orientation of junior college, which is going to result in my becoming a misfit within the school for the next 2 years, leading to me turning to drinking and smoking, and after a whole chain of events, my ultimate demise. damn i'm optimistic.

back to 2005. thinking back, 2005 has been one heck of a year, filled sadly, with a lot of mistakes lessons. i've learnt a lot of things about myself, and started thinking way more than i actually wanted to. this would include long bouts of time staring into space and just thinking about friends, family, and life. which was utterly pointless since i did nothing about it anyway. studies-wise, i think again i've failed to achieve what i could, instead messing around and wasting time. thankfully we didn't have o levels, because i'm pretty sure i've already flunk my higher chinese o levels. i guess being the last year of secondary school life, i should have taken things more seriously. i've kinda drifted from my friends too, due to being too caught up with a certain someone, which i don't have to say who. for that, i'm really sorry, because it has kind of changed the person that i am, quite a lot. and i apologise to those friends that actually meant a lot to me, but i never really noticed. cheers to the great people- darren, alan, ryan, je, han, sian, yao, poey, gerard and the others that never failed to mock my dota skills and still ask me to lan anyway. and cheers to the greatest class of 2005, 4R. been fantastic having you guys as classmates, even arunn (:

that's the past, and now it's time to look forward to 2006. i've promised myself to do the very best i can in jc, and push myself as hard as possible, since it's only two years, unlike primary which is 6 and secondary which is 4. guess that is my main motivation. let me just make a list (like ryand).

okay i suck at lists.

here's what i intend to achieve in 2006 anyway. firstly, studies. to work harder and score better. this would include at least an hour a day spent on pure hard mugging. or so i hope. however, i still intend to try and get the highest grade possible, whatever that is. secondly, there's getting my life in order. which would firstly be to clear my desk, and clean out my room for a conducive environment to study in. and my dad said he'll probably move (my) com to my room. (it's not really mine yet, but since there's no one else but my younger sister at home to use it... i guess... it's mine.) need to save up too to get a few upgrades... like a completely new motherboard and processor. long way to go. which brings me to the next goal- getting my finances in order. i don't really know why, but somehow i always end up broke. actually, come to think of it, i think i know why. but never mind, from now on i will somehow manage to save a substantial amount and buy everyone a birthday present. which again leads to the next goal, friends. i aim to be a nicer, more caring person who will be there to support friends when needed. to me it's quite a big goal, even with the small number of friends i actually have. to tell the truth, i find it hard to maintain contact with a huge amount of people. i either lose interest or just consume too much time doing it. but ever so often i do get the spur of inspiration to do so. i fully intend to get as many spurs as possible then, and meet new people in 2006. number whatly i've forgotten, i wish to be a more religious person. i've haven't really taken much interest in my faith and God in general, making it somewhat to me, a religion of convenience. only when i'm in need of God do i call upon Him, which i feel is... well, really bad. though i do enjoy the hour in church every sunday since it provides a peaceful, serene time to reflect and pray for what is really important to me. as such, i will now start saying my morning prayers to thank God for the bright new day and night prayers, to thank God for the bright old day.

random paragraphing because i think my previous paragraph became too long.

family too, i think i need to be more active at home, perhaps help my younger sister with her studies since it's her PSLE next year. also should help out more in the house, like cleaning up and helping in the kitchen, which is really useful because you learn how to cook, pick at the food before actual meal time, and how to wash up the damn dishes. other random goals would be to learn how to play the guitar, that of which i've been trying to do for the past 4 years and never really mastering it, and, learning whatever random new skills which i can't think of at the moment. and almost forgotten is my health and fitness programme! after pigging out for the past one and the half months, i feel the need to get back into shape, and hopefully put on some weight through muscle and not fat. so i intend to hit the gym at least twice a week and the pool at least once a week. not too ambitious i hope, since 2005's was an utter failure. (especially the 2.4 which i lost terribly to ryand. but fret not, i will get better timings this year. ph34r meh.)

and so, that pretty much sums up 2005 and 2006. cheers to a wonderful year ahead.

p.s i know the entry is bloody long and i haven't yet bothered to find out how to do those coolio short links that make the entry look deceivingly much shorter.